Sunday, April 20, 2008
"Alloo...lama tak dgr berita...tak tau kau masih hidup lagi ke tak.."
This sms i received from a friend of mine made me giggle and put a huge smile on my face...
but beneath all that humour...is a whole lots of sense...
it got me thinking a lot...
i realised that for the past 1++ yrs, most of my time has been devoted to work...
the time i spent with family and friends, and even the time i set aside for myself, is comparable to that of a teaspoon, i tell u....
or maybe even lesser...
and it sucks, really...
coz i've missed out a lot on the lives of my loved ones...
most of the time i dont even know what's going on in their lives...
totally clueless sometimes...
and the things i used to do..i seldom get to do them anymore...it's either i dun have the time or i'm just too darn tired to do them...
like watching football for instance...
i used to do it week in and week out...9pm, 11pm or even 3am, Newcastle united or whatever team..
i'll be right in front of the tv alright..
now, watching one match alone...is pretty hard ok...
i dozed off easily..not because footie is boring, footie is never boring...
it's just that fatique often got the best of me..
besides footie...
i love to read...
there's this book...
i bought it like a long time ago...
probably close to a year ago...
i havent even finish reading it..
it's like i'm going on a half-a-page pace per day...
it's either i'm too tired or i just dont have the time...
*sigh*
it's not like i get a lot out of my job...
aside from the experience i gain and the paycheck i get at the end of the month, what do i get??
nothing,really...
happiness at work...is pretty hard to come by if you were me...
crying...is kinda frequent...
work politic is getting from bad to worse
the backstabbing,the gossips,the bootlicking,the bullying...it's getting so ridiculous...
2 wonderful collegues have already left the place...one more will be leaving this coming monday...
me?? well, i'm just waiting for the right time to leave...
when i cant take it anymore...or when a really good job offer comes my way...then it's goodbye...
but for now...
i'll keep on holding on...
and i know that no matter what...
my loving family and my wonderful friends will always be there for me...
they always have been...
and whenever i need them...
they'll be a bedroom apart or just a phone call away. (",)
Just watch my wildest dreams come true;
None of them Involving You...
9:43 PM
