Saturday, July 29, 2006
It has been a while since i last stepped into a hospital...yep hospital...probably one of the most morbid and saddest place on earth...but i did stepped into one today to visit one of my uncles... he is terminally ill...into the last stage of a stomach cancer.. the moment i saw him i almost cry...it was hard... i can barely recognise him...he's all skin and bone...he's breathing thru a life support machine now and i heard that the doctor will eventually pull the plug in several days time. One of my relatives told me that morphine has already been administered to him to numb the pain...all this point to one thing... that his days are numbered...i'm not sure if he knows that his family members are around him...but doctor said that even though his eyes are open he cannot see...or something like it... he has a wife and a son who's barely ten years of age...i wonder how will they cope when one of the most important person in their lives is gone?
it is moments like this that made me realised that there are so many times in which i take my life for granted...i let days go by just like that without pausing to reflect on them and appreciate them..and somtimes i tend to take my family for granted too..lots of questions went thru my mind as i watched my uncle lying on that bed...what will happen if i were to lose one of the people i love? how will i cope with the loss? when will my time on this earth be up?if i'm gone what will happen to my family?...thinking about all these give me the chills...to tell you the truth, i am afraid of death really... but there's nothing i can do about it..i'll have to leave that to God...if my time is up then it is up...i'll just have to accept it....but what i can do is to pray to God the Almighty and be thankful for each day that comes my way... and try to make my living worthwhile...
Just watch my wildest dreams come true;
None of them Involving You...
8:30 PM
